My Yesterdays

I so want some of this furniture its called rustic furniture and it is so cool. Talk about rustic this take the cake. I could see all of this furniture in a log cabin. I have always wanted to live in one and have the furniture to match . Maybe one day that will happen but for right now I like my little house its easy to keep up and its down on a side road away from the busy street. I like the seclusion of it all . But right now my focus is on my husband and getting him well so we can take that vacation we both need.

What a trip I so feel bad for my husband reality is setting in and he is getting depressed about his situation. I'm hoping his will power stays strong and that he sticks to what he needs to eat . The good thing is that we me and my son can benefit from it also eating healthy is a good thing. So lets see if we all can lose some weight and eat healthy at the same time. and salt is not to good for you so that needs to be lowered way down. As it so retains water. So no more processed food for any of us. Later..

I came across this site stainless steel drums and I knew a lady that bought extra food and stored it in these drums , sealed drums she had them all over her basement all in order with all kinds of things in them anywhere between mac and cheese to toilet paper yep toilet paper, paper towels so they would not get wet. She had rice and all kinds of stuff stored in them Most of the stuff she stored did not expire and she always had many supplies on hand. I guess she was waiting for the depression to come back again and that she would making sure she had food to last her. I thought at the time that she was crazy but now I'm not so sure.

This morning when I called hubby to see if he was going to come home today big surprise , his hear went out of sync again and now they are not going to do anything about it . Just going to keep giving him coma-din for the rest of his life and has a reduce his sodium to nill. He also has to keep his high blood pressure down . Also has to watch his kidneys and watch what he drinks., Maybe one pop a day and can only drink so much a day wow I bet he is thinking just shoot me. But we will get through this we always do and oh um I lost my job they want me to quit voluntary . I don't want to ..

When hubby comes home he will probably have to have oxygen. and this evergo oxygen concentrator would be perfect for him to come home with its portable and easy to read and take care of it . I would hate to get him home and his oxygen go down and not have something for him to fall back on. Its been very stressful this past week.. With my new job and not being able to go to work I'm afraid that I will lose it. But my family comes first we will just have to get help from the state for now and see if hubby can get on disability because as far as I can see he will be unable to go to work again with all that is going on with him with his heart and kidneys being bad we might have to resort to help from the state. I will not like it but if it helps keep him going we will have to do what we will have to do . I'm not proud about it but like I said before it is what it is. Reach out for all the help you can get not just sit and die because you have no insurance. This really scared me.

I have been spending alot of time up at the hospital with hubby. He might get to come home tomorrow. I will be giving him his shots till his blood stops clotting to fast. Later.

I can't wait till it comes I ordered aHDTV for my bedroom. Hubby wants one for the bathroom but our bathroom is way to small for a TV in there. I actually want to mount it up on the wall so it don't take up dresser space. I don't want a big on but one that will fit the room. Hubby wants a new TV to a huge one like a 60" one. But I said now I'm at the point now that I have downsized so much that if we was to move again it would be so easy to back a few boxes and take off. I do want to move to AZ really but at this time I'm thinking that we have to see how he feels. In a few weeks.

Still sitting at the hospital with hubby .. he is getting better this is going to be a big change for both of us. I guess in this lifetime you take whatever it hands you then do something about it .. don't let it beat you just go on move on take care of what you have and live life as long as you can and as happy as you can. Later..

At my work I'm sure that they use the most advanced data center services because there is so much that needs to be done in the IT business we need the help to make sure that things are running smoothly. Although I haven't been to work in a few days I actually miss it alot but my first priority is my Husband. I know he would take care of me if I needed him. I have been worn out and is actually at home now resting and trying to get my head on straight with everything going on with hubby. Well off to bed because I have to get up early and get to the hospital after taking care of the dogs .

I have been at the hospital for the past few days with hubby he has so much going on with him I could write a book. He has congested heart failure, and his kidneys are working at 35% so I just don't know he has fluid around his lungs and a leak in his heart. gezzz they treat him for diabetes even though he don't have it also they are giving him blood thinners to help if they decide to do a angiogram so been busy going up there and going back and forth.. I'm tired and worn out . Its like a flash back of being there with my Mom. Its very stressful and boy I sure don't need that. anyway later going to bed. Later.