My Yesterdays

I am so missing my mom , she has been gone four months yesterday, It don't seem that long it seems just like yesterday I lost her. Oct 11 2009 and her Hospital room 444 will be forever embeded into my heart. If there is one thing I know she is with me always I see signs of her here and there.. she pops up and let me know by showing me her room number 444 everywhere I turn around.. sometimes I just smile and other times I feel her.. I love you Mom... and so miss you..

I have tried and tired to lose weight but stress and stress sure don't help, I was checking out different websites and came across this site that people have tried Stimerex ES and I just might give it a try. I usually don't like to try out new things like that but I just might give it a try.

Or I can just try once more on my own seems like I dont have time really eat anything with my new job just not eating very well don't have enough time a half hour is not enough time to eat..

Another day in paradise at work then home, seems my days turn into nights I need to get up and do it all over again will it ever get better.. Later..

While looking for a new job I seen Philadelphia job search site that offered lots of different jobs.

With lots of them having to do with IT Customer Service which I have done for the past 9 years at my old job which I just loved to do.


I did find a job here in the Quad Cities doing IT work sure is different from my last job. Its a very stressful job and not so enjoyable than my other job, but I have to remember that its not Qconline.

I sure am loving our new place all quiet and all , we still need to get some of the necessary things there like dishes and silverware.. but thank goodness to my oldest daughter Christy she bought me some fine china lol. For my house till we pick up the dishes. Later..

Back when I was pregnant I remember the prenatal vitamins that I took when I was pregnant with the twins. Although I knew they was good for me and my twins but I tell you back then they were huge. I took them and made sure my babies had the best they could have being that there was two of them inside me. So on the lighter side I'm glad I did take them my girls are all grown up and in good health.

I tell you learning  new job is not all that easy, its been one thing after another, hoping that I will make the 90 days and be able to keep this job. Wish me luck .. Later....

I have a nice diamond ring that we go and I get checked out for loose diamonds because I dont want to lose any of them. took me 25 years to get it .. I'm really tired and really need to get to bed getting up at 6 in the morning is just crazy , either the day goes by fast or very slow.. so we will have to see what tomorrow will bring.

When we move I need to get the cleaning products from my moms house before my brother throws them away..will do that this week cant wait till this weekend..breath toni breath..

Our new place has such pretty floor tiles in it I cant wait to get into it and just sit and relax for a while, I don't know if thats a good thing or bad thing, I will have more time to think more of the loss of my Mom.. I should be grieving now not stressing.. so we will see once we get in the new place .. Its going to be so nice to cook a meal and to be able to do laundry and the house is not that big so as not to have to keep up on it all the time..wish us luck tomorrow..