I just can’t say it enough
I wish my daughter all the best in the world and want the best for her , but I guess I come from the old school I just couldn't leave my mom but it guess it was different for me , my mom always said if you want to move to a different state go for it live while you are young.. But I guess not only did I not want to leave my Mom I was afraid to never had the guts to leave like my daughter .. I'm proud of her moving on and getting out of the same rut she has been in for so long .. You go girl .. I so wish you all the best in the world you are a strong, independent person I just wish I had the back bone to pack up and go. And you are so prepared I'm so proud of you its not like you are just up and leaving you have all your eggs in a basket and I'm happy for you.. Maybe is because you became independent when you were married and had to take on responsibility.. I guess your like that song .."If I had only known " because I always thought you would be here forever and I guess I would always have you around .. If I could of done my life over I think I would do the same as you.. really I'm so ready to move on.. I guess I was just waiting until Mom no longer needed me before I realized that I need myself also.. I would do it all over again if I had to with taking care of my Mom never ever regret that ever.. I have to go on I have to be strong for me and never ever again will I ever let anyone make me cry again I'm so tired of crying .. but don't mean I won't be sad.. I think that the reason it was so bad at work today and I cried was that I really wasn't ready to go back to work so soon after Mom died.. I was not ready to be pushed into the corner.. enough said ...
Later.
