My Yesterdays

I almost cried tonight.. but felt warm and just knew Mom was with me, I went outside to help look for drake, and standing out there I looked up and saw stars.. and one shining so brightly I just knew it was Mom telling me it was going to be ok.. and now I know it is.. we have a home will be moving soon.. I'm happy.. Its not my Mom's house but I will be so so happy to have my own place .. its hard living with another family .. The one thing that I have learned about this whole mom dying and losing the house and staying with family that life is what you make of it and we have tried to make the best of things and situations and sometimes its hard. But my daughter has said what don't kill you makes you stronger... Later

Will be Valentines Day and after seeing this gifts for her site I know just what to tell hubby what I want. I especially like the Unity candle holder. Hint Hint.. Maybe he will go and check it out and order it for my its early enough to give him time. Don't you think? I know Valentine's Day is all a big deal to some people and not to some,, but I so love it he always gets me the sugar free chocolate yummy.

That how fast the weekend goes till you start working again., this last weekend went so fast seem like a few hours. But I will get use to it and maybe just maybe I can do something fun next weekend again with my kids. Later

I sure have learned allot about whole life insurance it seems that my mom had one on me, also thank goodness she made sure we had enough money on her life insurance to pay for her funeral. She was really prepared with having all her final wishes carried out. I miss my Mom and although I wish she was still here with me but would not want her here in pain like she was. I don't mean this post to be about my loss but its only been 3 short months since her passing but it seems like just yesterday. I know she is without pain now but I still miss her allot.

I had a nice time with my oldest daughter today , we went to a few craft stores and did allot of looking around , I love doing that . when you do the same thing day out and day in you need a change and my daughter Christy always makes sure I have a good time when I'm with her. She really is so smart at doing peoples taxes to thats something that I have never gotten the hang of, give me a computer and I can figure out just about anything but taxes nope not for me. Later...

I wish with my new job I could have health insurance but being part time there is no benefits only if your full time. I was in a job for 9 years that didnt have business insurance so I went without for all those years.. I think I will be looking into getting some insurance for myself or looking for a job with insurance benefits. Although they did 401K at my old job I never put into it. I just wish I could save some money for my retirement but I don't see that happening any time soon. Hope that the younger generation will learn to save up , but sometimes they just don't think that far ahead.

I really love my new job , learning new things everyday. But sometimes its a bit overwhelming with learning all the new stuff. But I think that I will make it ok with my families help and encouragement. I think thats what family is all about. Love you family.. Later

Well I have just discovered that I have a dark mole on my back which I'm worried about I don't want to worry about if its cancer or not. I know of people that have had to get a mesothelioma lawyer because of the situation they ended up in when they found out they had mesothelioma. I hope things turn out ok with the help they may receive that they can make it out without to much heart break.

Tomorrow is a new day , one that I hope will bring better things, I still have so much to do and go through at my Mom's house, it just seems never ending but it needs to get done.. and if its not one thing its another now our car is broke gezzzzz I will have to call my daughter to see if she will take me down there tomorrow I have to go through a few cabinets and clean them out before my brother gets there he will just throw everything away he don't care, seems he don't understand the meaning of money or whatever lol.. Later

I need to get something such as anti aging products to help me if I want to keep up with the younger generation , I sure do need to look the part. With me starting my new job on Tuesday I know that most of the I will be working with the younger generation, I was told that I would be working with young people right out of college or some that are going there so as I see it I will be the Grandma of the bunch . Which is ok they will either hate me or love me.