My Yesterdays

Its amazing in just a few more minutes it will be 2010, who would of thought that I would live to see it sadly my Mom didn't, who would of thought that she would leave us this year on Oct 11, 2009. It seem so sad that we had thanksgiving and then Christmas and now new years without her. That my twins had there Birthday, my Grandson and granddaughter and Me and My brother all had our birthdays with out her this year.. it seems so much went by without her.. all I ask is that God give me the strength to go on to 2010. Later...

Ok I'm going nuts.. I'm going to up and leave and take my dog , my cloths and I'm gone.. seriously I am tired of the abuse , of walking on eggshells,. don't get me wrong i am not ungrateful to my daughter or son in law I'm not I appreciate them putting up with us,. its just that I'm really upset with the way things are going I'm going take my stuff and just run away really. If my hubby cant take care of me then I will , not that I don't love him its just I'm tired of going no where fast. With the loss of my Mom just a few short months ago, I got to move on.. seems everywhere I go is a dead end.. I hate depending on any of my kids for help .. and thats all I have to say about that. Later..

With all the stress going on and the lack of sleep I wonder if I won't have to get the stuff to help with dark circles under eyes and hope that life will turn for the better, it seems that things have been going down hill, at this time I feel that I'm in a dead end, soon I hope that there will be a bright sun or rainbow very soon.

I just hate that the weather is so icky I dont like driving in it and most the time refuse to drive, I guess I'm a pansy about it but its ok its just me, I'm sure there is others out there like me but don't like to drive in this type of weather. I really haven't been feeling to well lately not really sick but just feeling icky, oh well at least i'm still alive but wish i felt better. It will be ok as my Mom always said.

Well sometimes I wonder that if we had the spring plungers the industrial one's that way they would hold up longer, but they are for the big companies and stores so they will last longer, I sure do know that the one's you get for your home that they only last a short time and then off to buy more. Goodness I know that we have bought enough of them. I do know that I need to go get a job soon, I'm still getting unemployment but need to get back in the grove of things and get back to what I love doing that is tech support.

Sure was a very eventful one with the situation the way it is right now . crazy times and fun times watching the kids open up there presents it was funny to watch them one at a time they all sat around in a circle and waited patiently. Thank goodness that my daughter the oldest that is took lots of pictures. She is our picture taker in the family.. Later

I should of looked into franchise opportunities when I had my candle business I probably would of still been in the business, I really miss that I had done it for so many years and loved it so much, it sure was a very relaxing hobby. Sitting here looking at my son look at Ed Hardy products on the laptop and boy is it expensive its like 250 dollars for sunglasses. This guy is not even named Ed Hardy is really Chris someone. Boy this guy sure did and is making a killing with his franchise line.

My kids gave me money this christmas so I could get a Netbook that I so wanted, I'm so excited its really neat and its all mine. I have been wanting one for a long time.  Its really cute and I got a good deal.  Right now I'm watching cheaters it's crazy n funny at the same time. What people would do for love and how blind they are. Or how blind love is .  I often wonder that myself .

When and If I get to travel then I would make sure that I had medical travel insurance so I could get help in allot of different countries. I need to make sure I can get the best treatment available in another country. I have a friend that is from Belgium and would love to go there someday. My Friend right now is in California with his wife's parents for Christmas .. Merry Christmas Werner and Meghan.. Love you both.

We are still alive and warm thanks to my daughter Stacey, working on getting my Mom's house still and hope that we can but can only hope for a miracle right now . My computer stuff is over at my other daughter house , wow my stuff is spread all over the place.. sometimes I just want to run and hide for a few days , everything just happen so fast my mom's passing , going through her stuff moving I am lost really lost.. I really do need a few days to myself.. but dont see that happening.. seems things are going in a blurr.. running to fast.. for me .. help..