My Yesterdays

I think that maybe I need to go to talk to someone about my depression my mixed feelings of how I feel, Maybe a grief counselor or my Priest , I also think I need to stop and take some time for me , seems that I want to just run and hide away for a few days, but I don't have anywhere to go lol.. oh well hopefully it will all work out soon or at least I sure hope it does. sometimes it seems that I'm losing my mind.. maybe I should just run away lol.. but I know that won't solve anything. We are taking our time with Mom's house its just to hard to let go of her things .. but it seems that we got to get things going I don't know why , Got to just take my time everything in her house means so much to me after all I lived with her for many years taking care of her so it seems its all to hard to part with. That's were I'm at right now. Later...

Ok my son-in-law sure had lost alot of weight and it seems that he is getting himself in shape he goes to the gym allot and I was thinking of getting him a Kettlebell so he could do more exercise at home looks like something that he would like to do. I would get one for me but seems that my arthritis is acting up with the weather getting cold. My Mom just hated the cold weather she would ache all the time. Now its sad to say I do to so I guess cold weather is not for me either.

I'm just sitting here watching my grandson's Kyle and Logan .. I swear they are a comedy in themselves one is watching tv and the other is dancing around .. I swear you can give your kids all the new toys in the world and they would just rather play with a box or just watch TV . Logan has the WII and has a DSI and has another game system I think its Playstation 2 or 3 and here they sit watching TV crazy, little Logan is in control of the remote control and they are changing channels thank goodness they have all the bad channels blocked on there TV. Well got a few more things to do. I have been sitting here eating Poppycock for Cashew lovers .. bad Toni its got some sugar in it but I love it.. Later..

I have never been one to be crazy about buying shoes , I usually just a few pair of tennis shoes a year and just go with that. I use to be purse crazy at one time but there is just so many purses you can carry lol.. So after my Mom died I forgot that the last pair of dress shoes I bought was a few years ago .. and so I went to get a pair of flat dress shoes to wear to the funeral , which I found and bought. But while looking online I came across this site with Christian Louboutin shoes oh my you should see them they are really pretty and some a little crazy but I could never afford the price of them but I'm sure there are plenty out there that just might not think that they are to expensive. But for now I will stick with my flat heels its safer that way.

I still feel as though its all been a bad dream and My Mom is still here with us really .. It shouldnt of happen it was not meant to happen like that , it seems that the hospital took her away from us .. not that the nurses or all of the nurses was mean or uncaring it was just that some I guess had to distance themselves from the situation so not to be to depressed.. its funny really no matter how many times you see death its just not any easier. I have more to write about this but cant seem to put it in words right now.. maybe a bit later.

I would get me a new Cell Phone but Me and my Son just both got a new LG Tritan and although we both love them we have found out that the battery life don't last long .. As a matter of face tomorrow I'm heading up to the cell phone place and look at the new cell phones that they have in stock, and to get me another battery because they have a battery exchange going on thank goodness because mine only last a day which don't make me a very happy camper.