My Yesterdays

You would think that sitting up at the hospital for almost a month that I would gain weight and need a weight loss supplement but actually I lost 6 pounds how did I do that .. I can't seem to think how that would happen but I guess stress and not eating very much did it but I sure didn't get much exercise . I actually had so many people bringing me food that I should of gained weight, my whole family brought up food more than anyone could eat. Thank you all for being there for me.

I remember the night before had been a long night with Mom not feeling to well it was me, Christy and my Brother that stayed up there most of the night on Saturday into the early morning of Sunday. Time seem to fly by we sat with her to make sure she was never alone, I just didn't feel comfortable leaving her there alone.

My Son-in-law does ceramic tile and sure does a good job. I have seen his work and seen what a beautiful job he does. Soon when I own my own house I am going to have him put that in my kitchen and bathroom the kind that has the rough texture in it so as not to slip on it. I already have my colors picked out something with a green in it for the kitchen and something with a brownish beige in it for the bathroom.

Seems that its all around me mesothelioma many of my relatives got it working around asbestos, as along time ago they didn't know about it. So many got it and didn't know it 25 or even 20 years ago. It seems that my own father could of been exposed to it , I know that my Grandpa was and died from it but that was years and years ago.

Today went with my brother to the church to get things setup there to pick out the right psalms for the Mass and the right songs , said I can't remember what they were but even after the Mass I wont be able to remember either .. seems time is just flying by very slowly.

My sons computer is getting slower and slower , I told him that he might need to buy memory for it to speed it up a bit he has a dinosaur of one but has been babying it for a long time. So hopefully we will be able to get it up to par and make it run a bit faster. I myself want to buy one of them little notebooks to carry with me but thats just dreaming.

On Tuesday I really cant tell you what I did I am numb I can't feel I think that it will soon hit me come Thursday night for the visitation and Friday for the funeral.

Taking care of Mom was a big pleasure of mine , I really enjoyed the time I had with her and love every minute we spent together at the time I was living with her she was going through physical therapy and so my brother brought down fitness equipment it was a treadmill and I remember that my Mom would out walk me on it 20 years older than me and I couldn't keep up with her , come to think of it I never did .

I really can't remember anything about Monday , the only I can remember is that I couldn't sleep even though I was exhausted sleep did not come. after not sleeping well for many days I thought I would sleep the whole day but then there was arrangements to make and flowers to pick out. I'm still lost.

I grew up in a age were everyone smoked weather it be cigars or cigarettes so it was normal for me to see that but there was one person that smoked Davidoff cigars one of my Uncles I actually loved the smell of them. Of course most of my family is gone and so is he but I do have that fond memory of him smoking them to me at least sweet smelling cigars.