My Yesterdays

I would love to take a vacation , which probably wont be soon but in the near future I would love to and was checking on the internet for so help with getting to a vacation spot. I came across this site that have some Outer Banks rentals which would help with finding the perfect place . Staying in a motel cost allot now days but if we could rent a place for the week we might could save money to spend on something else.. Like new things for me.. and souvenirs . thats another thing I wonder about , when people go on vacation they bring people back souvenirs and what do they do with them put them in a china cabinet and look at then dust them .. they are memory's of places that person didn't get to go to lol.. I do have an ash try though that my daughter brought back from Cancun which I love  and still cherish to this day.. Just dreaming of the time we get out of this rut and go on vacation.

Well this week I made a few good suppers one was of round steak and mashed potatoes and green beans ..with gravy it was so good was gone the same night.. The other supper I made was of another of my favorite it was Meatloaf but in my meatloaf I put in onions, green peppers and a bunch of other stuff  and with that we had spinach and Scalloped potatoes . That meal last two days which was so good I just love meatloaf sandwiches, I like mine cold. Tonight though we had left overs well we had hamburger helper it was a rice and Mexican dish very good we put it on taco's so we had some of that left which we had and I had my favorite soup Ramon noodles chicken .. very cheap meal less than 25 cents for one of them and so so good but it has allot of sodium in it so its not really good for me .. but on cold raining days I love it.. I think tomorrow i might make some home made chicken and noodle soup that should warm us up.. Later.

Today I woke up and noticed that I acne yep at my age I'm sure it was and is caused by stress wouldnt you think.. I dont know but if it continues I will have to get some acne treatment for it just have to figure out which is the best for me. Again with all the stress now with being unemployed and all I guess that will stress you out.. then one of my children came back home for awhile till they can find a apartment.  I enjoy and love having my children around and if I had my way would keep them all home with me .. I want only the best for my children and will always be here for them .. no matter what .. our place is not that big but it just makes it cozier for us. Like I said one of these days I would love to have a big big place for all of us to be together .. I would love to have a big lot and build lots of houses on it for all the kids then they would just be a house or two away..

I was at Walgreens tonight picking up a few things and there was a line there . about 4 people ahead of me.. As I was waiting in line the guy in the front of the line bought 3 cartons of cigs.. I though how rich he must be to be able to afford them.. then woosh out of the blue he grabs the three cartons and off he took out the door with out paying for them.. I was in total amazement .. they didn't catch him but I'm sure they will .. how bold he was to do that with so many people around .. Not one of us ran after him.. well the guy behind him was a older gentleman and the lady behind him and infront of me had her foot in a cast and then there was me .. hmm ya I'm running after this guy no... dont think so if he had the guts to steal like that who's to say he didnt have a gun or anything also .. so not chasing this guy for me .. I just cant get over the guts this guy had to do that .. I have never seen that before in my life and at 56 years old I was in shock.. Well its on him not me he will have to live with what he did .. I'm sure he took them to sell for drugs or something with todays economy who knows.

I was thinking if I had my own house with a patio , that I would buy one of these fire pits so we could all sit around it at night and cook marshmallows and make smores , I think that would be a bunch of fun.. as long as its not one of them raining cold nights. I love having my family around and so want a bigger place so we can spend more time together .. with the economy the way its going I dont know if that will happen.. or maybe it will .. There might come a time that we will all have to move in together to help each other out , I think thats what its going to be coming to.. Hopefully things will pick up and we wont have to but I love having my family around and wish that we could spend more time together .. its just that all of us really dont have a house big enough to all fit. Well my one daughter does and we mostly have holidays at her house with is allot of fun.. Later..

Being without a job right now is a little trying I really thought I wouldn't like it and I don't .. I absolutely dislike it a whole bunch.. I do not see how anyone can not work and depend on getting unemployment really unless they have money put back which I don't because we live from paycheck to paycheck .. we don't have a life savings .. So I think that I will be out soon looking for a job which I have been but need to look a little harder .. with winter coming up .. the only thing that I'm not to fond of is the employment screening its not that I have a bad background .. heck I worked for 9 years at the same place its just I don't know .. but I guess its for the best I wouldn't want to work for someone and have someone with a bad background working along side of me. So hopefully I will find a job and get a paycheck every week.. I just don't like depending on waiting for a check.

Boy I swear that when it rains it pours and if its one thing it another .. first my unemployment being delayed and bills being put off , but then there are my children and rays of hope.. My oldest daughter called me today and said mom if you need someplace to do your laundry you more then welcome to come here and do it to help save me some money .. that i thought was so sweet of her.. She always brightens my day.. My twins being it was there birthday today both said dont worry about getting us anything we got all we need .. that helped also .. its just that i feel so bad about it .. but I did get them both a cute card.. Well got to get going ..

With winter coming I was thinking well no getting out to do any exorcise and my mom has a treadmill but I live upstairs and that would be a annoying noise for the lady downstairs to listen to as it makes a bit of a noise, But while surfing online I seen these ellipticals and I thought that I would make less noise. I must get into shape during winter as I tend to hibernate .. and eat.. So I need something to help with the weight. They say that exercising  improves your winter depression too. Wish me luck.

Happy Birthday Dusty and Stacey .. they are the big 31 this year although things are really scarce right now with me losing my job and now my unemployment is delayed for another two weeks so , I could only afford to get them a card for there birthdays i really feel bad about it because I havent missed a year but with times being so rough right now I just cant. I called both of them and told them of my dilemma because of the letter I got today from unemployment stating it would be delayed for two more weeks .. I have never been in this type of situation before always had money to pay my bills and now a month with no money its been rough .. Needless to say there is nothing I can do about it .. bills will have to wait and this puts me way behind with them but as I can see it there is nothing I can do .. the whole thing was because of my vacation pay that put me behind. oh well its not the end of the world and that I will be ok.. My mom says so and so does my brother he said everything will work out .. I'm just not use to being without money well what little I had.. Later.

I was thinking about getting a bigger place to live this one is getting to small lol. you can never have enough room , We now have just a couch in the front room its all it could hold right now well with the end tables and china cabinet and a sofa table and a big 32 inch flat screen tv . I was thinking of getting home theater furniture being thats its just the two of us , I think it would be perfect. Maybe one that just has two recliners on it .  although we do have the kids come over so maybe three would work better.. who knows if we get a bigger place we can go all out and get one that has four with it .. But we will have to wait and see for now.. hope you all are having a great friday.. Later.