Life
I came to the realaztion today that I need to spend more time with my children.. and to look at them without seeing faults and seeing that they have not become what I wanted them to be. Its not about me its about them .. they are who they are meant to be and I must except that .. I will be more happy and more supportive of them and make sure that they know that each of them ..
I may not be rich with money but I am rich in my health and my love .. I must take a step back and really look at my children .. love them for who they are and not what they have become..
My oldest daughter .. I always expected more from her, I have tried to tell her to move on with your life make something of yourself... but what I didnt see is that she did , she is doing exactly what she wants to do , My oldest daughter is the most caring and loving person I know .
She has been though hard times and always comes out of it a better person.. although she had her ups and downs and I personally would not put up with certain things she does and loves doing it .. its her its my first born its my christy.. I love you christy
Next in line is my Dusty she is one of the twins she also has been though rough time in her young life but seems to be a trooper and goes on and makes the most of things. she went down a wrong road and now is trying to come back were she knows she is the happiest.. I'm proud of her..I love you Dusty
Next is my other twin Stacey she is very picky , loving and caring at times she can be a pain .. she married into money and sometimes that can go to your head, she has that one fault that really bothers me .. she will learn one day . but I love her very much she is a good girl and would do anything for me .. I love you Stacey..
Next is my youngest child my son Raymie he is and always has been there for me not that the others havent .. the other kids dont understand the bond that my and my youngest have ,, we went through some really rough times when he was born.. we almost lost him several times.. and I think thats why we do have that special bond .. I kept him alive and in turn he as given back the love and caring and respect to me also..
Its hard to put into words the emotion I have with my youngest.. I love you Raymie
Each of my 4 children have given me beautiful grandbabies and that in itself is a very special gift .. I will cherish them all .. sometimes there isn't seem to be enough of me .. to go around they fight for my attention.
there are times when I want them all around and then there are times i'm just plain tired.. not of them but of always doing for others. but you know what it feels good to do for others.
I have also come up with the assumption life is way to short to stress so much , from now on i'm taking a backseat and let things just flow, help when I can and say no and im sorry when i cant ..
There is a saying all good things come to those who wait.. and its true I have so many things that have come to me in my wait..
Love you all my beautiful children and grandchildren and If i should die tomorrow I want you all to know that I will take to my grave all the beautiful gifts you have given me through the years.. you all will be in my heart forever..
Love Mom
