My Yesterdays

Today I went to help a friend with her computer , Just a short note I broke the zipper in my coat of 4 years and with this cold cold weather and being so busy I just havent gotten a chance to go buy another one, with some of the money we sold the van with .. been taking care of everyone else and just havent had the time with the weather going down in the minus digits I was really worried about trying to keep warm holding my coat closed when going out in this weather that just seems to be killing my aging body.. well back the helping a friend with her computer after about a hour of instruction and helping her I was getting ready to leave and she said you better zip up your coat I said its broken and I have to get another one just been way to busy to go get one.. she said wait just a minute and ran downstairs and up she come with the most beautiful coat i have ever seen. Its a beautiful goldish brown coat with zipper that works and snaps and a warm hood.. after thanking her and asking how much she wanted for it she said nothing it was just taking up space in my basement .. I was so happy and very warm .. Thank you Judy.. your the best. After leaving her house we and hubby headed over to the hospice were my Buddy is , I had not seen him is like a month and boy he really went downhill DAM that cancer at 52 years old he was not very cohearent not able to even know I was there he did moan a bit once but I dont really know if he knew I was there .. I feel so so bad for him he had a very great mind worked hard for his family and now its gone I have to keep praying that God will take him soon to get him out of his pain, and take him to his mansion in the sky.. He did say I had a spot at the head of his table and im going to keep him to his promise. He is my true Buddy and always will be forever.. I feel for Brenda and the kids all six of them was there tonight also , young children have no concept of what is really going on.. I will truely miss him.. Another bad bit of news is that my Mom got another C scan and they found another spot on her other lung DAM CANCER . well we dont know for sure but we go next monday to hear for sure if they are going to do a biopsy to see if it is cancer please pray that it isent she is my best friend as well as my mom she is my whole life at this point.. so many things coming on me at once besides another family member that is in trouble .. what to do , give up take more happy pills , deal with it and keep a postive attitude or what you tell me .. I'm lost i'm just plain lost. I need all the prayers you can throw my way and all the strenght you all can share.. please keep me in your thoughts. I'm tired and i have to go to bed.

Posted by toni on January 24th, 2008
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