Life
Posted by toni on Aug 27, 2008
I came to the realaztion today that I need to spend more time with my children.. and to look at them without seeing faults and seeing that they have not become what I wanted them to be. Its not about me its about them .. they are who they are meant to be and I must except that .. I will be more happy and more supportive of them and make sure that they know that each of them ..
I may not be rich with money but I am rich in my health and my love .. I must take a step back and really look at my children .. love them for who they are and not what they have become..
My oldest daughter .. I always expected more from her, I have tried to tell her to move on with your life make something of yourself… but what I didnt see is that she did , she is doing exactly what she wants to do , My oldest daughter is the most caring and loving person I know .
She has been though hard times and always comes out of it a better person.. although she had her ups and downs and I personally would not put up with certain things she does and loves doing it .. its her its my first born its my christy.. I love you christy
Next in line is my Dusty she is one of the twins she also has been though rough time in her young life but seems to be a trooper and goes on and makes the most of things. she went down a wrong road and now is trying to come back were she knows she is the happiest.. I’m proud of her..I love you Dusty
Next is my other twin Stacey she is very picky , loving and caring at times she can be a pain .. she married into money and sometimes that can go to your head, she has that one fault that really bothers me .. she will learn one day . but I love her very much she is a good girl and would do anything for me .. I love you Stacey..
Next is my youngest child my son Raymie he is and always has been there for me not that the others havent .. the other kids dont understand the bond that my and my youngest have ,, we went through some really rough times when he was born.. we almost lost him several times.. and I think thats why we do have that special bond .. I kept him alive and in turn he as given back the love and caring and respect to me also..
Its hard to put into words the emotion I have with my youngest.. I love you Raymie
Each of my 4 children have given me beautiful grandbabies and that in itself is a very special gift .. I will cherish them all .. sometimes there isn’t seem to be enough of me .. to go around they fight for my attention.
there are times when I want them all around and then there are times i’m just plain tired.. not of them but of always doing for others. but you know what it feels good to do for others.
I have also come up with the assumption life is way to short to stress so much , from now on i’m taking a backseat and let things just flow, help when I can and say no and im sorry when i cant ..
There is a saying all good things come to those who wait.. and its true I have so many things that have come to me in my wait..
Love you all my beautiful children and grandchildren and If i should die tomorrow I want you all to know that I will take to my grave all the beautiful gifts you have given me through the years.. you all will be in my heart forever..
Love Mom
Been awhile
Posted by toni on Aug 26, 2008
Its been awhile since I posted been so busy with the world .. and work and many other things. We have been told that we will be getting new kitchen faucets and I’m so excited, We get to pick our own out , Renting an apartment means we usually get what we get but we was told we could pick out our own . We must be really good tenants lol..
I want one that had a high faucet so I can get my dishes under them to rinse them off. Other than that life just keeps going on.. I have been thinking or should I say worrying allot lately and just came to the realization that its time to stop that .
Tonight at work I deceided that its time to just let God take care of me and not worry so much , I am a true believer that everything happens for a reason and as long as I feel in my heart that I have been honest and faithful and true to others and myself that everything will work out on its own.
This weekend is Labor day weekend and Kelcee girl once again is going to be in the pageant along with Makayla my daughters boyfriends daughter .. boy thats a mouth full .. Also Marissa my daughters husbands sisters daughter is going to be in there also . lol. I could of shorten it up but I’m like that I like to say a mouthful ..
Well going to take it easy now and not let things bother me .. I say if its meant to be its meant to be. and thats all I have to say about that.
later
Talking with my Mom
Posted by toni on Aug 19, 2008
A few weeks ago I was talking with my mom she remodeling her home .. and getting new carpet in her finished basement , and we also are going to repaint the spare bedroom and we went in together to get the curtains for it .. I can’t wait till its finished .
She was showing me a sale flyer of different things for the kitchen and she came accross a pictures of kitchen sinks and was wanting to get a new one , one with a higher faucet on it .. To make it easier for her to get her dishes under it to rinse off.
So once we get all finished with the rest of the rooms we will see if we can meaning me and my brother , get her a new sink she will like. Maybe for Christmas ..
After the Storm
Posted by toni on Aug 19, 2008
Ok its been a few weeks since the storm we had and I know its a big area but the trees are all still laying all over the sides of the roads, I’m only glad that no one got hurt really bad and it was the trees that got the most of the damage, While we was over at my Daughters house this weekend the back yard still is a mess we put up gutters for them as that is what my husband does .. and it sure does look good .. they are hunter green to match there roof, now they have to get out in the back yarn and cut up the poor swing set that was totally broke in half and then there is the question of which fence installation to choose from . As it too was bent from that big tree that feel in there back yard., There are so many pretty ones to choose from but its not my fence is my daughters and hubby’s and they get the fun of doing that.
Fun at My Daughters House..
Posted by toni on Aug 19, 2008
Every time I go over to my daughters house we have a ball doing all types of things if we aren’t on the computer looking up new things we are watching a good movie , Some times we play games one of them is a PS3 and one can really get into it ..
I go over or try to get there at least twice a month not that we dont see each other more than that in a month but both of us are so busy that we dont get a chance to spend alot of time together.
Last time I was over at her house I took my laundry and we ate, chatted , ate, chatted .. she is so bad she makes all this good food and me I cant resist it ..
She had this cat his name is Ben so beautiful long thick white hair .. I love to pet him even though I’m allergic to cats I cant resist.. I think my allergies are getting better .. When I was over there last it wasn’t to bad..
At my Daughters house this past weekend it wasn’t to bad either .. so maybe its a think I can grow out of .. lets hope.
Well got to head back to work ..
Just Happy ..
Posted by toni on Aug 19, 2008
I’m just happy today , grateful that I have work and grateful that all my children and my grand babies are all in good health,
I wonder sometimes why God has blessed me with so much happiness ,I’m just in awww that everyone is good .
I cant imagine what it would be like if just one of my children or grandchildren was sick or had a illness that couldn’t be fixed .. So Thank you God for giving me the best children and Grandchildren in the world .
Now is the time for the other half of the year , the one that is filled with birthdays and holidays. Pageants and Cheerleading and Soccer practice , and on and on.
I have been waiting for my One daughter to get married and was surfing the net and came across bridal lingerie and wow they have a selection to choose from..
I sure wish they had this when I got married some 36 years ago .. lol..
Later
Monday
Posted by toni on Aug 19, 2008
Monday , a new day and back to work and peace and quiet.. work went slow , Although we went to Texas Road house on Sunday I had half of it left and thats what I had for dinner last night . I think I did ok make two meals out of one , It seems that no matter what I do or how I cut back down on my meals for my diabetes that I am not losing any weight.
So I was surfing around the internet and came across Phentermine and am thinking about giving it a try to see if that will help me with my weight loss.
I want to get rid of at least 30 more pds then I will be happy .. I’m the type of diabetic that the more weight I lose the easier it is to control my Diabetes.
Last night was a trip to when I got off of work and I went to meet my Daughter Dusty and Christy at Walmart, Dusty needed a little help with some school supplies and my Daughter Christy needed a book bag for Jonathan I told her I would help her get one for him , I’m glad she came down and that he got to pick it out.
Who would of thought that a plain simple book bag nothing fancy would make him happy..
Well got to get back to work ..
Later.
Saturday and Sunday
Posted by toni on Aug 17, 2008
Oh my .. I must of worked my self to death this weekend between cleaning my house and watching my daughters dog , I washed all my cloths , rugs, and curtains and bedding so im set for the week, I also shampooed my carpets so they are good to go for another few weeks , see we have beige carpet and I just so dislike it .
We also spent time together me and hubby this weekend he usually goes and plays cards on Saturday night with his friends sort of a every Saturday night thing but this weekend he chose not to , was nice .. My daughter dont have internet and that just about drove me nuts ..
Between running back and forth from her house to mine and me grabbing a few things to wash and checking my email .. I’m worn out ..
We also went out to Texas Road house tonight was so nice just the two of us felt good just being with each other..
While we was there I over heard the couple next to us talking about Brazil vacation packages they said the last time they went there was so much to see and the package deal they got was great with hotel and all.
I got to thinking that we should look into getting one or one like it go someplace different and experience different countries .
Well I’m about to head off to bed will be the first time since Friday i have slept in my own bed .. Home is home and even though Stacey’s house is very nice its not Home. 
Later
The start of my Weekend
Posted by toni on Aug 17, 2008
On Friday my Daughter and her hubby and kids went to Wisconsin Dells for the weekend and ask if I would watch her dog Duke.. Man what trip that was they or should say she totally spoiled that dog.
This dog is not a small one a big one very big baby.. he is a nervous dog and don’t want to sit still he thinks he is a lap dog that weighs over 80 pd’s
I stayed the night Friday with Him so he wouldn’t be so lonely , which was fine but this dog has a built in timer lol.. 7 a.m. he wakes up and its time to go potty oh my , this girl dont wake up that early .. hubby went home with our dog Mariah because she is a little dog and is 8 years old so i was left alone with this massive dog ..
Anyway while sitting there watching tv I was thinking that me and hubby is not getting older and was thinking of a get away for us and seen some travel deals and am looking into searching for one , maybe go to Vegas or even Miami.
Well will talk about it and maybe decide this weekend were to go the next few weeks , Its time to start living.
Well got to get a few things done will write later.
A Busy Day
Posted by toni on Aug 13, 2008
Today I was up at 8 a.m. and have been on the go ever since and it seems to be non stop. Spent 5 hours at a place that I sure wish I didnt have to lol..
The past few days my fibro has been acting up being a diabetic , when your body starts hurting feels like you have the flu sometimes.. I was looking in to getting progesterone cream to see if that would help me.
With this weather the way its been hot and then chilly I don’t know its wreaking havoc on my body and seems it getting to my daughter Christy and her son.. when weather gets like this .. your body stars to hurt all over.
I have to tell you though I’m not a morning person and getting up so early this morning I probably will do one of two things go to bed early or stay up late and sleep in late.. hmmm
Well I guess I will find out when I get home tonight if I can stay awake long enough.
Tomorrow during the day I want to do nothing lol… oh I did fix a friends of mines laptop.. for her still have to get it back to her.
Later