My Yesterdays

When I first started my cake business I just did it on the side and now I'm thinking of hopefully make it my full time job, Doing cakes really relax me and I really enjoy doing them but now comes the time that I will need to think of making the business a real business and get going on having raleigh nc accountant so I can make it legal and have taxes added to the product. I have been thinking about going into a store that decorates cakes and doing some work for them. Just part time for now and it will be doing something I really enjoy doing.

Me Dusty and kelcee went to get our nails done today had lunch and really had some girl time Loved it. Been a long time coming and was good to just have girl time. Later..

Well back in the day when I was in grade school and high school they never a had fancey classroom desk like these we had these old wooden ones that half the time was falling apart from years of use. I would loved to had a beautiful colorful desk like the ones at that website. I remember the desk that you could lift and store you stuff in like books and pencils and paper. Now I'm telling on myself lol. Go take a look and check them out when you get time would cool to get one for your home for your children to do there homework on.

I have been somewhere the past three weeks don't know were but somewhere, hours turn into days and days to weeks. Life now is changing and becoming more realistic and seeing its just me that has to make it in this big old world. I haven't been alone much nor do I wish to be right now. I use to cherish the alone time and now not so much. Regrets I have none wish I would not been so selfish and wanted the alone time sometimes but I think it was gods way of showing me of what is to come. I'm grateful for my family and friends though they all have been so good to me. Now to find a place to call my own and to start life again and this time without my husband. I have to get going life is to short need to find a job but seems I would be of no use to anyone right now seems to soon but will have to buck up and get going. The one thing in this life I have learned is that you have to take care of yourself because although you have friends and family there is a time you must get up off your butt and move forward and try to be more independent.

I have been drinking lots of soft drinks in my life but then I came across these gatorade packets to mix up myself and let me tell you on the hot days it sure does help allot to cool your body down. Of course if it would ever get warm here for me to enjoy a cool beverage to cool me down. I am hoping this rain stops soon and the weather turns more like summer.

It was a very sad day on Monday April 29, 2013 my husband passed away. I havent had much time this week to post been so busy. will post more in a few days its just to hard right now. Later....

I wish I would of had one of these rheem heat pump from poolsupplyunlimited.com when I had my pool I have heard they are the best. My pool did not have one and it seems that my water was never getting warm. I can't wait till this summer as my new pool will have one of these in it to keep my swimming experience nice and comfortable and not give that shock of colder water you get when you get in for a swim it should be one of a nice experience than a cold one.

Today was not a good day for Jr, seems he is uncomfortable and very frustrated with the situation that he is in right now he is finally I think realizing that he has had a stroke and is not wanting to come to terms with it . I feel so helpless about it and all I can do is give him reassurance that he will get better and only he can do that and that I will be standing right beside him. He cried a lot today and it hurt my heart to see him do that because he is not a man that usually cries. There is nothing that I could do to console him when he went through these stages in his life. I keep thinking to myself what would I do if it was reversed and I sure as hell would be upset myself. You know life gives you twist and turns and some people don’t understand why and don’t except it and fight it all the way, and they say why me, I say why not me and would fight as hard as I can to get back what I had lost. But everyone is not the same or like me some just say the hell with it and give up and don’t try makes for a slower recovery.

My husband collects US silver coins and he has quite a collection going. He has been collecting them for a long time and has every imaginable coin out there. I'm sure he also has some that are very rare. I thought it was silly to collect coins and but in the long run you just never know what can happen to you and maybe one day they can be used to get you by or passed down to your children and grandchildren. Some people collect other things but not my hubby he collects coins. Got to love him.

Not so much a good day he seemed like he was in a bit of pain and cried a lot but did eat lunch and then went to sleep so I came back to the apt for a little bit oh I did get him some hair mousse which I put on him when I got back to the home. He seemed still a little agitated but soon supper was there and he ate and then started to relax we had our time together and then he wanted to go to sleep so I gave him a kiss and a hug and told him I loved him and he turned out the light and I came back to the apt. The family back home is still doing what needs to be done all of them including the son-in-laws. Stacey you have been there and helped me with me you don’t know it yet but your just being here makes me feel great . The days are turning into weeks the weeks into months seems like its never going to go any faster I have been in a routine now in which I need to break up a little which I have been trying each day, I don’t want it to become a chore I need a break but the issue is that he eats in his room and I have to be there for him to do that they wont let him eat alone and they have other patients to tend to so its up to me to come at lunch and dinner to make sure he eats good. Oh Greg is back from the hospital and is doing much better now glad that he is feeling better and is back in the room to keep Jr company.